The language is still tough for me and I'm so frustrated that I can't express my opinions/thoughts after all of those years doing debate and public speaking. It's frustrating, hard work but I have been blessed so much already by our Heavenly Father. It's amazing really at how much we have to be grateful for, even, if not especially, our struggles. In our times of doubt we both grow and are lifted up, even if we don't quite notice it yet. I've had to remind myself about this a lot of times this week. Two days ago I had one of the worst days here at the MTC. I just lost it and was on the verge of just a total meltdown. Okay, that might be hyperbole but it was just such a hard and frustrating day. The language was tough, my companion was impossible, I wasn't getting enough out of the lessons (both that I taught and was taught), and I just about had enough. I tell you this rather sad and not very uplifting story because of how I realized just how blessed we are. Though I was struggling, I realized how blessed I was the next day. Looking back on that day I now see that it was sandwiched by two wonderful good days, has helped me grow already in so many ways, and was something that I needed to progress. I won't go into to many details with this but I want to say how grateful I am for my life and this opportunity to serve Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I have a wonderful family and great friends writing me, praying for me, and thinking about me throughout the week (thank you!). I'm blessed with an amazing potential to grow and become what the Lord needs me to be. Lastly (but not even close to the last thing on the list of what I am and should be grateful for), I have a Heavenly Father that knows me, loves me always, and lifts me up for when I have fallen. Oh how blessed I am.
I liked this scripture this week about faith. It is kind of random but I just enjoyed it and thought I could share:
Jacob 4: 4-7, 10-11
I love all of you and hope you have a fantastic week,
Starsi Lyman